In Memory at Christmas

To My Babies in Heaven

 

Well guys, it's Christmas time again. But Christmas this year is different. Last year I lost you Mischif at Christmas and now each Christmas will be a hard time for me as it will remind me of you. I miss you so much!

Christmas use to be my favorite time of the year. I use to bake a special birthday cake for Jesus birthday. And you guys, well I had a good time buying you presents and wrapping them with you watching. Chifie, I always got you a special toy. Remember the stuffed cow that would moo when you grabbed it? You loved cows. And so did you Spud. And then there was that dinasour - you loved him. Played with him til I finally had to throw it away. I still have your toys here in a basket. Every Christmas Eve you would get to unwrap your presents. Some of you didn't do to well and I had to help you, but then there were some of you that knew what was in there and you would tear the paper off & there was a bone or treats or something.

And Cuddles you were the one- I would wrap the presents a week before and put them under the tree. You would go sniffing all over to see which was yours. I would tell you this is yours but not yet. It's not Christmas Love your heart you would stay away even when I wasn't here. Then on Christmas eve I would say OK Cuddles you can have your present and I would go over to the tree & say get it and you would run over to the one I had shown you the week before & get your present and drag it out from under the tree and start to tear it open. (And they say dogs don't understand what you say- Hum Bug I know better than that. They didn't have you to prove that). I spoiled you rotten at Christmas. I have videos of our happy times but I haven't watched them for a while.

And Spud I remember about a year after I got you, you decided to go over and pee on my tree and I was standing right there. I was so mad - the presents were under there too. I had to grab them & rewrapped several. You just looked at me as much as to say - "Well it's a tree isn't it?" Boy - you were something else. I watched you from then on.

Then on Christmas day- I always cooked up a big meal even after it was just us and each one of you got Ham, mashed potatoes & gravy, sweet potatoes and a veggie.

I had so many happy holidays with you, Your Easter egg hunts & Thanksgiving Dinner. Now they are so lonely. It is just not the same.

It started Thanksgiving of 99 when I lost you Spud. And then each holiday started meaning less as I was losing you one by one. And finally Mischif this Christmas I lost you. You were my baby. And I thought I could not go on. I knew then that I would never have another Christmas that I adored again. When you died, I died with you. I told Jesus I gave him an Angel for his birthday. I gave him the thing I cherished most in my life.

Well guys Merry Christmas. I will celebrate Christ's birthday each and every year but as for Christmas, my spirit went with you Chif.

I miss all of you so very very much. Pebbles does too. But one of these days she will be joining you and then my precious family will be gone.

We have Abby now - you would have liked her. She is a real special girl and I love her dearly but she will never replace what I had with you all.

So take care of each other and be real good. One of these days you will look up and I will be there and we will once again be together.

Until I see you in Heaven

Love Mommie