My whole world is coming down and I can't stop it. I have cried all morning as I know you are leaving me. Even the Angels are crying. I have had 18 wonderful years with you and I can't imagine my world without you in it. I have been watching you fade for a while now & I knew this day was coming, but I was hoping it never would. This morning you were having trouble breathing & I knew. I took you to the doctor and they gave you a shot to help you breathe, but said I may have to help you if it didn't get better. Well I am here now and you are laying beside me and I guess I know what I have to do cause it isn't helping. I decided to start this now while I can as even though it's hard to type through the tears, I may not be able to do it later.

You were so ugly and scroungy when you came to my door at 3 weeks old. All fleas and a mess. I told you - I don't want you but I'll find you a good home. I did. Mine. You grew in my heart more and more every year. You became my Lifeline. You were the reason I got up to go to work, you were the reason I never gave up when times got tough. You were with me day and night even when we were apart. For 18 years you sleep next to me (you had your own pillow) I can't imagine going to bed without you laying there. You laid beside the computer as I surfed the net and did my webpages. You sat beside the table when I was there. You laid beside me on the couch as I watched TV. You were where ever I was, if I moved you moved. You were my whole world and my reason for living. I have had alot of dogs in my time but never one like you. And I will never have another one that was a close to me as you. You were my life.

But now I must do what I didn't ever want to do and that is to end your suffering and let you go. I pray to God he will find a very special place in Heaven as you were a very very special dog.

I will add to this as soon as I am able as part of me died with you tonite.

Well Chifie (his nickname) it's been two days and I was so angry I didn't want to look at this site. I didn't eat, sleep and I missed work. Yes part of me died with you- I will never be the same. It's Christmas Eve. I am going to church tonight but that is the extent of Christmas this year. I told God I gave him an Angel for Christmas. I hope he likes my gift. I know I did the right thing to end your suffering but it doesn't stop the hurt in what's left of my heart. I held you the other night and talked to you after I brought you home. I know you heard me. And then they came to get you for your cremation. I have your ashes in a ceder box with an Angel on the top. I put you next to Spud. I hope he looks after you I know you two didn't get along down here as you both wanted to be No. I in my heart, but everyone loves each other in Heaven so I know you'll be OK. Tell everyone Hello and that I love them and one day I will see you all again.

I don't know how I will make it without you here as you were like a shadow. But I will always love you and never forget you and you will always have a part of my heart with you.

Love, Mommie

I copied this from My Pets Page

        where I will take Mischif off 

Mischief was also a stray. He was about 3 weeks old when he came scratching at my door in November of 1985. He was cold and covered with fleas. I took him in and bathed him 4 times(for Fleas) and decided after the vet visit I would find him a home. The doctor said his lungs were full of water & someone had tried to drown him. The bill was $100. I decided he was to expensive to give away. So he stayed.
He was so funny as we also had a ferret & they would play hide & seek. He was the size of a ferret when he was little. And then came the day when he was not so funny. He decided to check out a Skunk. It was a hot day in Texas. Since I had to go to work- he had to stay in the trailer. It took 3 weeks to get the odor out of the house. Over the years this little brat grew on me. He went from a stray I didn't want to My Lifeline. When I broke my hip, he was beside the walker to make sure no one got near my leg. He was my protector.
Two years ago I thought my life was ending when his eye was bulging and he was diagnosed with cancer. We had to take his left eye out and they removed a lump in his neck. I prayed so hard and the Good Lord heard me as I still have my Mischief.