I waited 20 years for a little one that I could name Precious and after 7 short months I lost you.

This has been really hard for me and I still think you are coming home but each day I realize you're not. I miss you so much sweetie.

It was February when I got you and you were my little cupid. You shot an arrow in my heart and it will stay there forever. Just a tiny little 7 lbs. I was amost afraid to pick you up. You would bite when I did but I would put a little blanket over your head & then pick you up. Once in my arms your were the sweetest most loving little tyke in the world. Loved to be cuddled.

You were so good. went outside to do your thing & come back in when I called you. I laughed as you ran like a deer. In leaps & jumps. You would run to the door to go out & bounce up on it & bark.

I had you checked at the vets &chipped. You had lyme antibodies which worried me. We thought you had nerve damage as you bite when I touched your side. We had xrays for broken ribs but they came back OK Never in a million years did we suspect your bowels & pancreas were in such horrible shape.

Then we had your teeth pulled. 16 of them and since someone had already yanked out all the front ones you had problems eating so every night I would hand feed you and you were so good at it. You waited patiently while I fed everyone and then it was your turn. You took your meds like a little trooper. So perfect in all your actions.

You had your favorite beds and mostly you would lay there & watch what was going on. I had you a special bed in my room for at night. And you would sit there and wait for your bedtime treat then lay down & I would cover you up. Snug as a bug in a rug you were.

Everything was going fine & then- I saw blood in your stool and you threw up yellow bile. I called right away and rushed you to the vets. They kept you and put you on meds and did blood work. When it came back they seen they needed an ultrasound. That's when they found your bowels in a horrible condition. They tried so hard and sent a sample away. I didn't get the results till after you were gone but there was no cancer. We thought you were going to be OK as you were up and around but then you took a turn for the worse. That's when he ask me to come visit to see if it would help. I sat & held you for an hour and just loved you . But you were crying out alot and I knew your weren't good. The Dr ask if I wanted to put you down & I just couldn't. I never had a problem with anyone of my others as I knew but something just told me NO. I wanted to see the results & I was soooo sure you were going to be OK.

Finally the Dr took you and said I was to call on Sunday morning to see how you were & I kissed you goodbye & told you I loved you and to fight as I wanted you to come home.

I cried on the way home and prayed. I wasn't home very long when the phone rang and the Dr told me you went on your own 10 minutes after I left. I just could not bring myself to believe it. Why - Why didn't I stay longer. But several people said to me- you hung on as you wanted to say goodbye & that you didn't want me to be there when you passed. You didn't want me to go through that. I hung on to this and I really believe you did want me there to say your goodbye & to be loved so much one more time.

I picked you up the next day and called to have you cremated. I gave you last rights and held you for a long time and told you how much you were loved.

I will miss you as you were my Precious little angel and just what I wanted for the little girl I had been looking to rescue.

As a breeder dog of 14 years- you were just worn out and I only got a short time to love you but those moments will live in my heart forever sweetie.

Go to the bridge now and play in the fields and tell all my other babies I still love them & will see you all in Heaven.

When you left - a piece of my heart went with you!

BEYOND THE RAINBOW

As much as I loved the life we had and all the times we played,
I was so very tired and knew my time on earth would fade

I saw a wondrous image then of a place that's trouble-free
Where all of us can meet again to spend eternity.

I saw the most beautiful Rainbow, an on the other side
Were meadows rich and beautiful - lush and green and wide
And running through the meadows as far as the eye could see
Were animals of every sort as healthy as could be

My own tired, failing body was fresh and healed and new
And I wanted to go run with them, but I had something left to do
I needed to reach out to you, to tell you I'm alright
That this place is truly wonderful, then a bright glow pierced the night
"Twas the glow of many candles, shining bright and strong and bold
And I knew then that it held your love in it's brilliant shades of gold.

For although we may not be together in the way we used to be
We are still connected by a cord no one can see
So whenever you need to find me, we're never far apart
If you look beyond the Rainbow and listen with your heart