He was only 4 years old

Well Lucky you are finally free of pain. You were the most pitiful sight the day I met you laying on that cold wet concrete in that shelter and I could see you were in pain. I fell in love with you right from the start and promised you I would protect you from any harm. I spent 2 years almost with you trying to stop the pain. I would sit on the floor with you when you would scream and cry for you. You would run to me for help and I couldn't do a thing but to hold you & cry. It's been a long & hard battle and I thought we had it after your surgery as you were doing so well. Then in July it started again. I didn't know then that with this kind of surgery it weakens the other disks and since yours were bad it didn't take much. I never could figure out why your name was Lucky and the fact I got you on St Patty Day. But now I realize - I guess you were as I saved you 3 times. First from the shelter when I rescued you. Then from being PTS by the foster group when I adopted you and then I freed your pain when you went to Heaven. I loved you so much. I really didn't think I could go through it with you but when I was forced to make that decision God was with me. I gave you last rites and you kissed my face as much as to say "Thank you." The tears did flow then. You went so easy and quick as if you wanted to go. On the way home I was going down a back road out in the boonie docks. I ask God to take you quickly into his care and all of a sudden I hear these bells like a wind chime and I lost it. I just screamed out loud. Oh Lucky - You made it to Heaven. It was my answer from God that you were now in Heaven and at peace. I cried like a baby but out of happiness for you. This is why I put the little wind chimes at the top of your page.

Sweetheart you will always be with me and I will always love you. My only regret is that I couldn't stop your pain. I will never know why your owner would dump you at a shelter after being hit by a car and then for them to let you lay for a month in pain with no help when I was calling every day to get you. I was told when you screamed in pain they hosed you down with a cold hose. This broke my heart when I found this out. No wonder your back was in such bad shape. But you were loved and spoiled rotten for almost two years and you loved me too. We had a special bond you & me. I miss you in so many ways. I had a routine with you as you had to take meds 3 times a day and I never forgot. It was automatic. And at night you would lay as close to me as you could and lay your head on me to sleep. Cody would want to play fetch with his ball & you would get it & keep it so we couldn't play. You really didn't want the ball but you wouldn't let me have it either. Now when I play ball with him I think of you stealing it & I have to smile. The only regret I have is that I couldn't really hold you & love you as you would cry cause it hurt. I could pet you and be close but I wanted to hold you close & love you and I couldn't due to the pain. You were such a joy even though you had problems and took alot of time I didn't mind as I wanted to do what ever I could to help you.

Everyone at the vets at two clinics knew you well (we spent alot of time there) and they all loved you. They also felt bad when you had to leave. They went thru physical therapy with you and said you were a joy to work with. You even had your own fan club here on the net. There were a lot of people out there who cared about you sweetheart. I got emails all the time asking about you. You were one special boy who was loved by many. Even Benji loved you and he don't take to all my babies. You and him use to play when I first got you before your back got worse. But the degeneration just kept going on and finally you couldn't play much anymore. I got you a ramp so you could get on the bed and off easy. I try to make your life as easy as I could and keep hoping for a miracle but it just wasn't to be. I checked about acupuncture and was learning Reiki - whatever I could to help you but I guess it was time and God wanted you home.

He gave me an angel to watch over for him for a little while and then He called you home. I will always love you Lucky and will miss you so so much. But I will see you again one day and then we will be together forever free of pain and fear. So play in the fields and with the other furbabies and all the children till that special day when you see my face.

Tell Jordy and all my other babies Mommie says hello and I love them all.

Love

Your Mommie

who loved you with all her heart & soul.

 

May I Go?

May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say good-bye to pain filled days and endless lonely nights?
I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free?
I didn't want to go at first, I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now to a warm and loving light.
I want to go. I really do.
It's difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and afraid, because I see your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that,
and hope you'll always know that my spirit will be close to you
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you, too.
That's why it's hard to say good-bye and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time
and let me hear you say, because you care so much for me,
you'll let me go today.

Lucky was cremated and placed in the memorial tube at Golden Lakes Memorial Gardens I will place his plaque here when it is finished

Watch over him Lord. Let him run and play once again as a young puppy he was. Give him a special angel to comfort him when he misses me till the day I come to meet him at the golden gates. He is a special baby who was loved so much here on earth and I will miss him dearly. He spent little time on this earth without pain now you have set him free. Thank you for giving me that strength to let him go and once more to run & play in peace.

Watch over my special little angel Lord till I come home.