My precious little angel went to Heaven.

Katie was diagnosed with liver cancer in April. She was given a few days & I was devastated. I brought her home and started Reiki with her. She had collapsed the week before & I rushed her to the vets where they did x-rays & hospitalized her. They got her stabilized & I had the ultra sound done and got the horrible news. But amazing as it was she got better & after a couple months I thought maybe she is in remission or it’s gone. She was doing sooo well. Then on Saturday morning she ate her breakfast & took her meds with everyone else. She was always first in line. Just stood there patiently waiting. A little later I saw what looked like a Hugh pond on the floor and there was yellow slime all over with Vienna sausage in it. I didn’t know if it was her or Benji as they both got their meds in the sausage. So I just watched them BOTH carefully. But Katie seemed like she was having problems with her front legs & walking. At suppertime she refused her meds & food & I knew it was her. I called the vets immediately and she said to watch her & keep her quiet. No food & small sips of water & to call her at 8 AM unless she got really bad. I went to bed early & Katie sleep in my arms all night. I played music for her & of course did Reiki for her. About 3 in the morning she could not get up & cried out a few times. Then from 4 to 6 she slept. I got up & went to let everyone out & get their meds & when I came back everything in her body let loose. She also could not move. I moved her to clean sheets & washed her all off & told her it was OK and that I loved her. Then I called the vet & at 8 I took her out. She was in the final hours of her cancer & I was not going to let her suffer anymore so I agreed to send her on her way to Heaven. I had given her last rights & said a pray for her for an easy transition and a quick one. And I held her when she took her last breath.

As I look back it’s only been a little over 2 years since she came into my life. This breaks my heart as she had so little time to know love & a home. I saw her in an Ohio Shelter on petfinder. She was really scraggy. Old & a total mess. But I called to see what I could find out. She had a couple days & then it was the gas chamber. The morning she was to be put down I just could not stop thinking of her. I called again. They said they were getting her ready to take back then & I said NO- PULL HER! I had to get the money to them right away so I sent it UPS same day. Called again & she was safe. And there was a transport that weekend. I went through nightmares with the transport & the woman lied to me & tried to steal Katie. (I understand why as I heard she sells to research & Katie would have been PERFECT as she is so gentle). Well I found her (she wouldn’t even answer her cell phone) accidentally –I just happened to pull into a parking lot & there she was with 20 some dogs in her car & she was standing out with Katie. I put Katie in my car & my friend Jerry had gone with me & the first thing Katie did was to give us both a kiss.

I took Katie to the vets & she had some problems which are on her original page. But we got her fixed up- a bath & groomed & she looked a lot different & boy was she happy.

My little Katie was perfect in every way. I have never had one who did nothing wrong but she didn’t. Never did she give me any problems. It took me a year to convince her she could come in the house after I let them out. Finally she would come in with hand signals so I knew she had lived outside all her life. I guess the fact she could sleep on a bed was like Heaven to her. She would just roll all over & groan & whine & carry one when I would put her up. Katie was at least 12 years old & I am guessing she may have been older.  She loved to go for walks & Bye Byes. Got all excited. Otherwise she lay around the house (usually in the room where I was) you never knew she was even around as she was so quiet & laid back. She loved to give me kisses. And I would give a million dollars for one more right now.

Katie was hard of hearing & could not see real well plus she was incontinent and had some health issues but we gave her meds & she was doing fine till the found that tumor.

Who knows a year ago her PREVIOUS vet gave her shots twice within two weeks by mistake. This could have caused it from what I read about vaccines. I will never know for sure. She also had ringworm last year about this time & had to be caged separately in the room with Benji (he also had it). She really was unhappy & sad – I pitied her so. But when she was OK I let her out & she bounced all over the place.

So Katie has been though a hard life & not everything was great at my house but at least she had Love and I was there to help her after she came to me.

I really loved this little girl (and NO she was not up for adoption- she was permanent). This is really hard for me as I thought I could give her 5-6 years of love & caring & she only got 2. Tonight when I go home from work it will be really hard to go in my door as when I open the door to let them out- Katie is straight across from it in the bedroom looking out the door waiting for me. Even though there is a gang rushing past me- she is the first thing I see when I open the door. & I tell her come on Katie – Let’s go out. & she gets all excited. It didn’t take much to make this little one happy. I will be lost without her and she took part of my heart with her.

Ironically- I ask God to let me know she got there OK. When I got home I had to check on something in my email & here was one from a dear friend (it said a sympathy card). I thought how??? How could she know?? I opened it & the tears flowed & I just knew it was God telling she is here with Jordy. You see I never even realized but – it was an anniversary sympathy card for Jordy as he was PTS on Aug 31, 3 years ago. The Vet who put him down was the same vet we went to get her ultra sound done for my vet. So she is probably with Jordy now as He was old & laid back like her (a cocker spaniel) and they would have liked each other. 

Cuddles is having a hard time also & Benji. Abby spent her days & nights with Katie in the bedroom and of course Benji was with Katie during their illness.  Abby lay with Katie before I took her out & then when I brought her home & laid her on the cot. Abby lay on the floor beside her till Rob came to get her for her cremation.

I lost a Very Special Angel today and God received one.  I will always love her and will miss her forever. But I told her to watch for one day Mommie will see her again.  

Katie, Mommie will always love you and miss you.

You were & always will be my Special Angel!

This was taken the night before she died.

I looked at her and she looked just like a puppy again.

Almost like "Look mom- this is what I will look like in Heaven!"

I had never see her with her little ears standing up.

I dearly love this picture.

A Parting Prayer

Dear Lord, please open your gates and call St. Francis to come escort this beloved companion across the Rainbow Bridge.

Assign her to a place of honor, for she has been a faithful servant and has always done her best to please me.

Bless the hands that send her to you, for they are doing so in love and compassion, freeing her from pain and suffering.

Grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss. Help me remember the details of her life with the love she has shown me. And grant me the courage to honor her by sharing those memories with others.

Let her remember me as well and let her know that I will always love her. And when it's my time to pass over into your paradise, please allow her to accompany those who will bring me home.

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of her companionship and for the time we've had together.

And thank you, Lord, for granting me the strength to give her to you now.

Amen.