Letter to my Jordy
Hi sweetheart. Its so hard to type through the tears. But I wanted to tell you one more time how much I love you and how much joy you brought to me for a few short months. I miss you so. You were the best behaved baby I had. I miss you laying by my head at night. I finally got use to your breathing heavy due to you old lungs & now its too quiet.
You had the softest silkiest fur of any dog I have ever seen. I loved to pet you. And you were such a dream to give a bath, a pill, whatever, you would just stand there & let me do whatever needed to be done.
I remember the first snow we had- I put you all out & you stopped dead in your tracks & turned around & looked at me with the stupidest look. I said get out there & then it hit me. You were from Georgia & probably never saw snow. I laughed & took you out & put you in it. You finally got use to it- I don't think you liked it but you were a good boy and would go out.
You loved going to the adoptathons. You had a ball. Once you fell in love with a little cocker & followed her everywhere. You wanted to say hello to everyone & every dog. Then on the way home you would lay on the back seat & snore. The first time I stopped my car I thought it was my engine. I never heard such a noise. I laughed so hard when I realized it was you.
I am so sorry sweetheart I wanted to get you a forever home sooo bad. One where you were the only baby with an older couple that would sit on the couch with you and go for walks. That was my dream for you but it didn't happen. No one wanted an old dog. No one that is but me. I would have cried when you left but would have been happy that you had you own family to love you with all their heart. I tried so hard but I guess God knew you were going home soon and he just wanted you to stay with me for a while & give me love.
You loved carrots. It's hard now for me to mix the food at night as when I add carrots I think of you and I wish you were here to have some. I will probably think of you every time I see a carrot for the rest of my life.
No one will ever know how much joy you brought into my life & how empty it feels since you left.
You had problems ever since you came - first with the yeast infection I had to bathe you every other day for weeks & put stuff on you & your ears - infections. Finally we got rid of it & then it came back. And of course you lungs were bad we knew that & you had an enlarged heart. I guess we were fighting a losing battle with you. But we tried. Furry Friends was so patient with all your problems and never refused you any treatment. They really cared about you too Jordy. Everyone who met you loved you. You couldn't help it when you looked at them with those Big Beautiful Brown eyes.
You weren't just a foster - know that - you were special & I loved you like my own. I will always love you Jordy. And one day I will see you again. You and my other babies all in Heaven. Wait for me as you are part of my family.
You will always be a shining star!
Goodnight my precious little foster who I loved like my own.